Two steps backward

Well, today was a bit emotional.  I listened to sappy music on the way to work. It really was beautiful piano concerto music. The kind that pulls you into a cloud of beautiful shimmering notes that melt all around you. But that leaves you open to emotion and these days that means tears!  So, I went into work crying and trying to dry it all up.  Ok, finally I got under control and then I had to go , at lunch, to buy a tombstone.  A beautiful, marbley, bronzey flat tombstone.  It will have his and my name cast nice and shiny and someday, I will be put beside my husband forever. Sigh............... then two or three? people came in and wanted to know how I am doing. One person Dale worked with for several years had just found out he was sick and wanted to know how he was doing?!?!  Well, that just sucked it all out of me.

So, I had Hannah again, chattering cheerfully and playing around and it makes me feel a bit less morbid. 

After purging Dale's "at home" clothes and bagging them up, I got the bright idea that I could actually cut his sweatshirts and pants  (see below)into squares and blanket stitch around them for washing/cleaning cloths.  Also, most of his shirts were some kind of blue plaid.  This would make a lovely quilt for a lover of blue. I don't think I could ever sleep under it, but it would be very pretty. I may get around to "frogging" some of these (also below) old crocheted items that I never finished and try to make something else from the yarn.  Or I can always look into my stash downstairs.  No hurry, I know it is there when I am ready.

 Some more of my sad photo attempts:

      

 
  One huge blue and burgandy afghan and one small pink and green afghan to take apart and wind into balls for the future. One small child that I am not really sure what to do with!

This lovely red sweat suit and a few others should make a plethora of soft wash cloths.  Mine seem  to have been eaten by the dryer.  Buster is doing what he does best and that is chew, chew, chew...............I am sure that he is gonna be a lot of help!
 

Ooops! this stealthy invisable hunter crept into the picture.  Can you find him???  hahaha.   I don't really like the hunting thing, but HE did.  I was searching for a picture of him in one of his many blue shirts and this one lept out at me instead.
 

I hope this closes things on a happier note!

Time to come back

Has it really been a month since I posted????  Shame on myself! 

Today was a moderately busy day at work.  Everything in it's own time, no hurry. The is always tommorrow to finish or the next. The first of the month crunch is over. 

Since things seemed to be going so smoothly and orderly, I decided to continue when I got home.  I drove up into the carport and saw two empty chains hanging from a beam at the end of the carport.  That is where the babies' little blue swing was and where "Papa" used to sit and quietly push them. Usually they would fall asleep with the gentle swaying and slight rustling of the leaves.  So sweet.  But....... the memory made me burst into tears. It will never happen again. Oh, the strange little things that bring forth memories.

But Erika came in behind me and left Hannah with me and we both got busy. Hannah played in the new, not quite finished, play area that was the dining room.  We never ate there and it is just perfect for a low table for coloring, block stacking, tea parties.   We have odd pieces of cabinetry for storage, but still need a  round table to put just under the hanging light fixture.  It will be great. I can just see those little cuties grabbing crayons from each other and pulling hair and just having a wonderful time!

My main mission was to get my kitchen in order.  I am not a kitchen diva. I use the dishes until there are no clean ones, the sink is atrocious, well you get the picture.    So I decided to pare down to 2 each plates, cups, bowls, glasses, etc.  I had to rewash everything in the dishwasher because they were coated in lime? I will have to check into that problem, but I shouldn't have to use the cursed thing now.  I will have to go through my pots and pans, flatware, utensils, etc. This is a major purge and it is thrilling me.  Then I decided to mop the floors since they were sticky and I couldn't remember when I had last done so.  I just haven't cared to much in the last few months, but I got on with it.

Last night, for the first full night, Buster (the pup) and I slept in the bedroom instead of the couch.  I got up only once when Buster got restless and closed him up in the bathroom.  I had already made him a bed and put down a puppy pad.  He did quite well, actually.  I have decided to keep him there while I am at work. I hate to, but it is better than a 24"  x 36" kennel, even if he does weigh 2 pounds.  I won't say he is really company yet, but he certainly is a distraction and gives me plenty to do, so I reckon he can just stay on. :)

I have more plans for tommorrow night (after I finish the kitchen project) and I hope I can keep momentum rolling!

And today marked 2 months since Dale passed away.   How could that be?