Not for the faint of heart!

As promised, here are some "before" pics of my new living space.  Be glad this is not in 3D because you might just jump out of your chair! These pictures were taken with my phone and are not the best clear representation of all of these yummy treasures! I did forget to take pictures of the two large windows. I didn't even have the lights on for these pictures and there was plenty of light.  There is actually about 450 sq. ft. down there. I will have to add a small bathroom and teeny kitchen/workspace.  My mind is swirling with ideas!

Looks like I am going to have to work on my picture posting skills.






 

Only part of my yarn stash.


 

The only spot that isn't trashed.  One wall is ocean blue
and the other is a lime green!  Experiment gone so bad!
This picture certainly did not pick up the green. And it is GREEN!
 



How many time have I rummaged through this stuff for a treasure  that wasn't there.

Washer is great, the dryer got fried by lightening.

This is just the stair landing!





 

 



Something old, something new

Ok so I changed the name of my blog again.  This one seems to really fit way better.  I am not ready to do beautiful things yet.  I am in survival mode and there is no reason to pretend that I am not!


So, today I have decided to start doing one good deed per day and being thankful for one thing that has been done for me.

It is not hard to do one simple little thing for another person.  Even anonomously. In fact secret goodness is even better because I won't be tempted to pat myself of the back.  I will have to review my day to pick out one simple thing that happened to me. 

Also, for now, I pledge to do one extra thing each day to simplify. Just one simple thing. Since I am planning to move downstairs, I need to get started! I can also do more, but I have to do one thing.

 My friend ember (hi!, ember) has a daily process of tossing (or gifting) one item per day.  That is doable.  I came home with determination and tossed papers that I had gone thru and left wadded up on the floor.  I tossed Dale's undies, and belts away also. The first thing of his that I threw out was his toothbrush, the next day, his dentures. It seems to follow a pattern, sorta.

Actually I haven't done one single thing since he got sick back in June.  Others have done laundry, dishes, swept floors, but I haven't, until today, done much of anything.  I may get around to the dishes because I need to take dishes back to those wonderful people that brought food over.  People really are kind, even if they don't know it!

BTW, this all actually will kick in tommorrow since I kinda got a late start today.

Tommorrow I plan to start planning my new "digs" downstairs.  I am going to be brave and even post some "before" pictures.  I am brave, oh yes I am!

Little people that make life worthwhile

Oh my! I am not sure which baby is which!

I have not learned how to send pictures from my phone to my computer, so these are some that I had in my computer already.  Mamas don't be offended if they happen to be all of one baby! These pictures are not current, but I love them




All three of my granddaughters looked very similar at birth. They were within ounces of each other.  One was bald. They were all beautiful and getting more so each day.  I just love to watch them as their little personalities develop.  And wow they are different.  But all being born within about two years, they are like a basket of puppies when they play.  They always bring joy to my heart and are helping me, along with their moms and dads to keep grief in proper proper proportions.    

This child is totally into bling!







 



A nice bath and dreamin' of angels or puppies........




                My family is my salvation in this earthly life.

An altogether good day

Well, I just had to look at my FB messages and what did I find?  A horrid, cruel one from Dale's ex.  Just when do they give up, do you think?  Just what I needed, but I weeded through it and disected it until I found a couple of slip-ups on her part, so I know that all of the horrible accusations are false. 

So after that, what worse could happen?   My lovely daughters took me out for a surprise lunch which was very good.  My work load is manageable, which is good.  I feel decent, which is good.

I don't have a lot to interest anyone but I did swipe this picture from another blog:



Do you ever feel like the spot?  :) 

Plowing Through

I have gone back to work. Monday was pretty hard, but today was better.  I had to go to the doctor to get a prescription renewal and had a good crying session.  This is a small town and everyone knows or knows of everyone else.  So they were very understanding and I got it over with and went back to work. 

My daughter and son-in-law and I are talking over some alterations to my house.  They love the house and location, but it is just too small.  We think we can add a master bedroom and bath and finish out the basement so I can have me own space (Grammie, cave dweller, i.e. built in babysitter!:)).  I would be a great financial relief for me.  I can afford to do the basement part, but the upstairs would be their baby. We are only in the planning stages.  I have always wanted to make a master suite out of the basement, but couldn't afford it.  With insurance help, I can do it up pretty well, I think.  Anyway, I now have something to think about and plan.  I will also be able to build in a crafting, reading, writing nook.  I have always wanted that!  And I just won't be all alone. So wish me well in my endeavor to start a new life. 

One step forward and two steps back, but maybe one day, I can learn a new dance!

Change has arrived

Change can come so fast that it can blindside you and sideline you.  I knew the time was coming realtively soon, but the actual experience is just numbing.  How long have I longed for a place of my own?  Just mine.   Now I have an entire house to myself.  I hope that Dale didn't feel my longing in the wrong way and think that I didn't want him around. 

But he is here!  He is around every corner. He is outside looking over his beloved hills watching the morning wildlife scamper around.  They were not afraid of him.  Maybe they knew? He is in his shop tinkering around........he is all around. I can still feel his little paw-like hands covering mine. I can see his messy blond head. 

I am still trying to process that he was really sick, let alone that he is gone. But, I know that we gave each other the best ten years either of us had ever experienced and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

Dear Dale,

I will always love you, but I will continue my journey as scarey as it is. I will remember you and I will feel safe.

Love, Sherry